Another Last Day
A rainbow bridge story.
Thelma and Louise, two chihuahua mixes, did not like strangers, riding in the cars, the vacuum, sudden movements, a camera pointed at them or rain. They arrived from Mexico, semi-feral, underweight, and sad. They clung together and worked to keep the world at bay. They were adopted out together and returned. Adopted out separately and returned. There was no formula that made them happy. No place that brought them joy. And no home that wanted two bonded terrified, snippy little dogs.
Months in and I was disenchanted with their lack of prospects. The idea of them being so completely unwanted, broke my heart. And so, I made the decision to simply let them live here with me – on their terms.
They slept together, ate together, explored the yard together. They loved each other completely and that was enough for them. Over the years they mellowed and begrudgingly accepted pets, treats and an occasional snuggle on the couch.
When Louise was diagnosed with congestive heart failure, I grew deeply concerned for Thelma. How would she do without her beloved sister? Much sooner than expected, Louise’s condition deteriorated, and the day arrived, her last day, where we would have to say goodbye.
I have seen many animals through their last day. Usually, it’s filled with a small adventure, a pup cup, a forbidden snack…but not this day. Louise’s lungs were filled with fluid, she could barely walk and all she wanted was to snuggle with her sister.
The tears flowed all morning as we waited for the vet to arrive. Louise, with Thelma at her side, laid on a blanket under the walnut tree. She went peacefully, leaving us all with our grief.
Thelma is suffering now. Searching. Waiting. Longing for her life-friend. It’s monumentally depressing to see her sorrow and face my limitations to ease her sadness. What are the magical words or deeds that can ease a dog’s pain when they have lost a friend?
My love for animals is made of hope, wishing, and wondering. I wish every day that I could more easily understand their wants and needs. I wonder if the life I am giving them, is enough. And I hope, with all my heart, that when their last day comes, they leave this life feeling loved.
RIP Louise.